Wednesday, October 31, 2012

If I were myself...

Monday, October 29, 2012

There is a mood I feel sometimes
sometimes I feel as though I should not be here
that it is only a matter of time
it is usually when I'm happy or at peace.
I feel I am a ghost
disconnected
I live in a place I have lived my whole life
and I still bump into the walls while walking through the doors
at least once a day
they never move
perhaps it is the walls way of telling me I shouldn't be here
perhaps they are bumping into me?
Like a bully passing me in a hall
and when you drop your books they say
'sorry'
while walking away
smirking to their friends
I have never hated an apology more than in those moments.
When I am happy or at peace
I remember that everyone must leave
and I feel frightened all the time
because one day they'll leave
and I know these walls will hold no sympathy
they will be cruel
and silent.
I talk to so many sick people where I work
I talk to many who are old
I talk to people who talk of death
and I come home
and every cough
and every pain
reminds me
and when I am happy or at peace
I am very sad.
Not everything is better in black and white
and if you believe this
or tell people this
then you know nothing of photography.
A photograph is not taken to look good
at least not in art
at least not in truth
when an image is created in truth it is created to match the thing that is in the image makers head
sometimes to match that image the photograph must be in black and white
sometimes it must be in colour
sometimes it must have grain
sometimes it must be clear
sometimes it must have people
sometimes it mustn't
sometimes it must have contrast
sometimes it must be dull
when you say "this is a good picture, it would 'look' good in black and white"
you are not seeing with your gut
you are seeing with your arrogance
and you are disrespecting the image maker
it is similar to seeing a painting and thinking it would 'look' good in black and white
the painter has selected those colours very carefully
and it is apart of the meaning of the work and the mood of the work and the feeling of the work as much as the subject
when you think or tell or talk to someone about a photograph and say it would 'look' better in black and white you are ignoring the choice of colour, you are ignoring the image makers concious decision to have it coloured and you are not treating photography correctly.
It may be a terrible photograph you may not like it
that is fine
that is good
but do not think it would look better in black and white
and perhaps it would
but it wouldn't mean what it was meant to any more
and photography is not just about looking good
it is not about numbers
gadgets
or pixels
photography, when given to someone in search of truth
just as with any medium
is about showing someone what you mean
and if you don't understand
find another photo.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

It's hard being a photographer sometimes
you can't show someone a memory
you can't pluck it from your mind
and say "here, this is what I saw today. This is the story I want to share"
and I can't draw
I wish I could
it would be much easier to look at that funny person I saw today
and then draw it later
without them ever knowing I found them so interesting
when you have something pointing directly at them
like a finger
or a gun
when you have to create the thing you want to create
right here
right now
when you have to observe and capture
simultaneously
it can be a little tricky
and people don't like it
and so it turns into a moral battle
between your own desperate unexplainable needs
and the rights of others
no wonder photographers are usually loud
there's a courage there
but we're scared too
but sometimes the fear of knowing that the thing you just saw will never happen again
and that there is no other way for you to capture it again
outweighs the fear of being yelled at
or annoying someone
or having your camera smashed to tiny little pieces
or your face
I guess I could write about it
but it's not the same
and I could sketch it or paint it
but it's not the same
if a painter took a photo instead of painting it
they wouldn't feel it was the same
and sometimes you don't want to take any more pictures
but things are still happening
sometimes you want to just live
because seeing everything through a camera
changes experience
and is draining
so there is a choice also
of when to capture
and when not to capture
because you can't capture life without living
and you can't live without capturing life
it is very difficult
I've always told myself
it's the pictures I didn't get to take
that shape the ones I do
but it still hurts a little
that those photographs will always have to swim around in my head
like a horse I never bet on
or a stove I never switched off
and there will be more
but that's something the photographer just has to leave with though
in a sense it's a life of regret
the regret of not capturing something
the regret of capturing and not experiencing
my camera leads such an interesting life
I wish it's memories were my own
but photography isn't truth
just like painting or drawing
it can't capture everything
and what it does capture is selective and depends on the person taking the picture
just like choosing which pencil to use
or which colour to paint with
a photographer must choose what to capture
what not to
when to take the photo
when not to
how to take the photograph so that what is in my head matches what is on the camera
it's just another tool
like a brush or a pencil or a pen
so that the person behind the tool
can put what is in their head
outside of their head.







I've always liked your drawings
and I've told you that
"I love your drawings" I say
and you always seemed uncomfortable
I thought it was because you were modest
which I always found to be strange
because you shouldn't be modest about what you choose to do every day
you shouldn't be modest about your love
well I suppose you can be
but I don't think you're really like that
so I wondered why you would glance away
and not respond
and then I looked at your drawings again
on my own
and I mean really looked at your drawings
and then I begun to realize 
that all those funny people
and shapes
and things on the paper
weren't as ambiguous as I thought
and we're not so different after all
it's just harder to hide behind photographs.
It's time to worry
when the job you hate
becomes something you like
and you're not sure if it's because you like it
or if it's just because somewhere along the way
you stopped hoping.
Lately I've been in the mood for things that I don't like.

Friday, October 26, 2012

Of course I'm beautiful
I'm Georgia Quinn
eyes like summer
and lips like spring

skin of winter
and autumn hair
I do what I want
without a care.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Men are strange
and I have come to learn
that it is not for beauty, wit or intelligence
that they fall
but I find that they do respond quite well
to accessibility.

Monday, October 22, 2012

I need some new bras too
I really like those minimizing ones
Maybe it's time you think about getting them reduced
What? Not yet, later maybe...
Well why not now?
Briany hasn't got them reduced yet
But she has children, she's having children. You're not planning on having any children are you?
Well no...

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Why are you limping?
Please tell me.
One meow for yes
two for no
are you hurt?
Are you old?
Alice, why are you limping?
It bring tears to my eyes to see you hurt
to see you walk and suddenly
one of your front legs collapses
and you sit
as though nothing happened
your dignity amazes me.
You are like an old nun
strait and tall
wounded behind your long black folds.
Please don't limp any more.

Friday, October 19, 2012

Sometimes words are bullets
severing something
just important enough
to leave a trace behind
and they get it out
leaving tissue damage

sometimes
the bullet can't be gotten out
it's too close to something
important
and it swims about
for the rest of your days

sometimes
through the chaos of war
or the mess of human error
the bullets come from our own gun
and it's so close it breaks through your back
and hits another behind you
and then you are both left to bleed
on the floor
hoping
that someone might find you.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

I've got to get out of this neighbourhood
a high school teacher I recognized
but did not know
said hi to me today
and then told off a boy in a school uniform
standing next to me at the tram stop
'Anything could have happened,
don't do that again,
what would I tell your parents?'
things were said I don't remember
I felt I was witnessing something I shouldn't
a mother telling off their child
in hushed and spitting words
and strong affirmative tones
the poor boy didn't know what had hit him.
She walked back accross the tram tracks
pleasantly smiling
to the large group of boys jeering across the tracks
she stood with them smiling while they jeered.

I remember seeing this kid alone
walking to the stop
I thought
I know what you're going through buddy
he walked like I used to walk
alone with nowhere to go.

I haven't had many good experiences with teachers
there are good ones and bad ones
there are teachers who are mothers
some who are friends
others who aren't really there at all
and some who are there but who are not friends.

I don't think I ever had this teacher
but she was always around
she looked like a coordinator.

I felt for that kid
tall boys in uniform laughing and pointing like Neanderthals
she stood there
in front of this mob
she was miniature in comparison
like a toy
with that sick smile on her face
like she was proud of something.
When she said hi she called me by name
I don't think I had seen her for years and
my hair was very different to how I used to have it then.
It's almost suspicious how teachers remember you like that.

She said.
It's really funny how you can be so clever and insightful sometimes and then have a really immature sense of humour.

To which I replied.
Dick jokes are the future.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

It doesn't make sense
that life and death
are so strongly connected
to some pay cheque.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

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When will you be home?
When will you be home?
When will you be home?
Call me.
Call me.
Call me.
Call me.
Give us a call.
Give us a call.
I'll call you later.
Call me later.
I'll call you later.
Bye.
Bye.
See ya later.
See you soon.
Good bye.
See you when I get home.
I'll see you when you get home.
I'll see you when I get home.
Where are you going?
What are you doing?
Who are you seeing?
Whose playing?
Where are they playing?
What time are they playing?
What time will you be home?
What time will you be home?
What time will you be home?
Who are you meeting?
Call me.
I can pick you up.
I'll pick you up.
Call me so he can pick you up.
What are you doing?
What are you doing?
What are you doing?
Are you going out?
Are you going out tonight?
Where are you going tonight?
Are you going out tonight?
Tonight?!
Tonight?
Tonight?
Bugger them.
Don't bother.
Don't go.
Don't go.
Don't go.
Fuck em.
Get rid of them.
Get rid of them.
Get rid of em.
Will you be home tomorrow?
Are you going out tomorrow?
Have you got work tomorrow?
What time have you got work?
What time till?
When?
When?
When?
Oh.
Oh.
Oh.
Oh.
Oh.
Well call me.

Art.
Lets make some art
I'm an artist
art art art art art art art art art art art
It's all about art
Good art
bad art
I'm arty
She's so arty
I always thought you were eccentric
that's art
that IS art
What is art?
It's all art
Everything is art
that's great
you're great
This is great
That is great
that was great
That's not art
This is art
Artists
ART WORLD
THE Art World
That Art World
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Sunday, October 14, 2012

I think I heard them say I'm crazy
then maybe someone responded
'she's not crazy, she's just sick'
I think my parents think I'm crazy
I was half asleep though
Were they yelling about me?
Screaming?
I heard the word diarrhea
I think my cat made a mess
I'm paranoid
what will they have to scream next?
What if there's still water on the bathroom floor?
Did I leave the bread board out?
I slept too long again.
What am I doing wrong?
What are they saying about me?
I heard my name.


I heard my name
didn't I?
I think I heard them say I'm crazy
then maybe someone responded
'she's not crazy, she's just sick'
I think they think I'm crazy
I think my parents think I'm crazy
I think I'm crazy
I was half asleep though.

Someone was screaming
about something
always about something
always for a reason
they're not crazy
I heard my name
What have I done?
I don't know anymore
impossible to say
my clothes are on the floor
did I leave the bread board out?
remember to vacuum
I need to change your sheets
I slept too long again
There's a pot in the sink
the benches are clean
the rubbish is out
I tidied the bathroom but there's a pot
in the sink
HOW COULD I FORGET THE POT IN THE SINK.

They think I'm crazy
they were screaming
I heard the word diarrhea
I think the cat made a mess
take your shoes off
they're too loud.
What are you still doing up?
It's 3am
go to bed
have you got work tomorrow?
how was work?
how was work?
how was work?
why can't I ask you about work?
You're making dinner?
Okay...
have you made this before?
No? Okay...
*hover*
what's in it?
I don't want a lot
Mmm, this is nice
and you haven't made this before?
Is there more?
Thanks.





Saturday, October 13, 2012

Another scream
Another Scream
AnOther Scream
AnOther ScrEam
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AnOtHeR ScrEaM
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AnOtHer ScrEaM
AnOtHeR ScrEaM
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Friday, October 12, 2012

Lies and Other Statements

I was drunk
I didn't get much sleep
I'm tired
I was going to be there
I was thinking about it
It's on my mind
I don't have to live by your social constructs - man
I have issues
It's been a big year
it's been a long day
In a million years the sun will blow up and nothing I do will ever matter
if I died nothing would matter
I could kill myself and nothing would matter
My alarm didn't go off
I slept through my alarm
Something bad happened
I don't feel good
I feel sad
I'm depressed
I can't get out of bed
My head feels funny
I'm not feeling well
I'm not good enough
I hate myself
Everyone hates me
I'm never leaving the house again
I don't want to
I can't
I will
I'm going to
I'll be there
It'll be great
I've got work in the morning
I'll do better next time
I'll change
Everything will be better
You're right
Okay
I'll do it tomorrow
I know
The walls are closing in
The computer hates me
Technology hates me
I didn't mean to be late
I won't be late
I'll try not to be late
The bus was late
The train was delayed
Public Transport
I didn't mean it
This is wrong
I don't know why I did that