Autumn is the saddest season
not because of the rain
or the clouds
it's the light
the most beautiful soft, golden light
opens itself up
and mimics the dying leaves
I don't know why that light is so sad
perhaps the beauty of it
reminds me death
my grandfather died in Autumn
all those years ago
my first boyfriend broke up with me in Autumn
all that time ago
my birthday's in Autumn
I've never been very happy on my birthday
the light reminds me of something fading
of new beginnings
of leaving things behind
change always feels sad.