The Doctor Told Me

My doctor told me I need to talk to him in a few months
when I mentioned my mood swings
20% of the population suffer from mental illness at some point
he said.

He mentioned anti-depressants.
I'm not sure about that...

I felt irrationally sad later,
but I wasn't sure if it was because he said that
or if I really do need some help.

My mum said she cried all the time when she was my age,
she said it as though it were normal.
I'm not sure about that...

Sometimes I'm happy
and sometimes I'm sad
everyone gets that.

Does everyone sleep in?
Do they prefer sleep to reality?
Do people stop going out because it's easier to do nothing at all?
If you don't leave the house, nothing bad can happen.

If I don't leave the house
then strangers won't keep telling me they just want to be friends.

If I don't leave the house
then I won't have to be afraid.

I don't know anything at all.